I don’t want to sit around feeling bad about myself all of the time. But it probably won’t change at all because I don’t have a lot of skills to work through my problems and depression. I have been a very lonely person for a very long time. But I just want to be a better person for the better. I don’t need anyone to tell me a lot of bad things about me because I know it all. I have not been a good person to myself and most of the people that are around me. That’s why I can never think of a chance for me to have a lady in my life and I don’t blame them at all. If I were a woman. I want to pick a man who is not very problematic and has a positive attitude. That is not the kind of person I am. And I think that it’s really hard to feel this kind of way all of the time. I think that it’s hard to be this way. But I deserve all of the bad things that have happen in my life. It’s just feeling good to be a loser because I think that I deserve all of the bad things that have happened to me. Even though my biggest dream is to find a woman in my life that can comfort me and help me deal with my own problems and weaknesses. I am beginning to accept my faith and where I would be at the end of the day. But a London escort has felt challenge when she sees my situation in life. This London escort has no problem in seeing the badness and the goodness of my personality. That’s why I am very interested and happy to have her in my life. I told this London escort that I would just be a burden to her. I was not saying just to make her feel pity in me. That is the truth and reality and that is a hard thing to swallow at the end of the day. I felt like there is a positive thing that I can do with this London escort after she told.me about her life and how she can relate to me. I have a friendly London escort in my life. And I am obsessed in keeping her interested in my. I was not showing my emotions a lot when we are together because I don’t want to see her go just because if how such a loser and aggressive I want to be. But that is just because all of my life there is no woman who would look me in the eyes and try to love me. I was deprived of love and I deserve no woman because of my weaknesses and lack of abilities to cope up like other people in this world. I know that I can never be good for a London escort and that is very sad.